♥GEORGINA关洁慧. `THIS.IS.LOVE`

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I've got over it. Really trust me (:

2010年01月23日, Saturday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CORNscience! HAHAHHAHAHA. LOL.

hey! I don't know if you'd read this, but i can tell you seriously, i let it out, i felt better. I mean, i'm letting go and have already let go of the feeling. I can promise you that. I don't wish to lose a close friend like you just like that. I hope we can be how we used to be, i pray for that. I really wish we could be that close friends ever again. Okay, it sounds kinda wrong but yeah, it's really from the bottom of my heart. I know it's wrong to have that feeling. I wish to have you back as my super close friend again, okay? It was just that the past few days, i've been feeling real down. HAPPY FRIENDSHIP FOREVER!

Labels: I really really swear, i've gotten over you..

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I don't know how to feel anymore..

2010年01月14日, Thursday.
Now, it's the second week of school, the fourth day. I thought things could get better, but still, it's the same. More pressure than before.. I can't take it anymore. ): Of what happened today, i mean nothing happened, but it's just me. During chemistry, i really felt like crying, like who would? It's seriously very pressurizing, very very. I can't take it no more ): I can't stand it. I'm so going to break down. How now? ): My brain ain't working at all. Nothing goes in. I felt like a block, that's all. How? ): I feel like giving up ): How? But, i've come so far, and i have to carry on.. Bcos this is the path i chose. But how? Should i give up? ): I can't take it.. Ahhhhh, howww? Who can help me? I really need to speed up now. Damn, all the negative thoughts are visiting me again. I can't! Argh. I don't know what's with me at all. I can't think. So many things are going on!! Many many many of them ):

Labels: i'm so into you..

Monday, January 04, 2010

You'll never know how much it hurts.

2010年01月04日, Monday.
Happy i hate Monday day! OMFFFFGOSH. It's just only the first day of school and i'm feeling like this already! :( I think i need a daily 'nurse' to take care of me :( Anyway, my heart hurts so badly. You played with my feelings. Ah, forget what i said. HAHA. Anyway, yeah teachers changed. Mrs Mimi Ang's my form and chem teacher. More expectations, more work to do. Sigh. But well, it's just only this year now. Jiayou georginarachelkwan! Ahzhar! You can do it, i guess. Hmm, i think i'm still dreaming about the movie, the treasure hunter. LOL. Hahha. Funneh. & Ms Clara Wong's my new english teacher. Okay, i'm starting to miss Mr Shafie's lesson. Haha. Ah well. I can do it! Sigh, next week there's like english and chem test. Mygosh. And the pile of chemistry notes and english work are staring hard at me now. :/ Alright, byebye love.

Labels: evil...

Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year Resolutions :

1. To have the best family bonding ever.
2. To have good results for O's. I'm aiming 10 & targeting A's for all.
3. To tell you that...
4. To find someone..
5. To have good friendship with my friends.
6. To earn more money.
7. To be more kind.
8. Talk to GOD more/Pray too.
9. To be a good daughter/sister.
10. To stop bitching/gossiping.. [i feel so bitchy..]
11. To be stronger..
12. To overcome every single obstacles smoothly!
13. To be HAPPY everyday!
14. Be myself, the hyper one again!
15. To forget everything that happened in the day, bad ones, quick.
16. To forget how i feel towards you.
17. To run many more times.
18. To do revision everyday after i come back from school.
19. To concentrate more on studies.
20. To learn to let go...

Byee..

Why? :(

2009年12月31日, Thursday.
Goshh, i don't know why. I'm feeling so down. :/ Sighh.. I think i can just die. LOL. Okay, it's not funny at all. Hahah. Ah well. One moment, happy. The other, like an idiot. Why? I'm confused. Damn.. School's starting so soon. :( I'm really feeling down. Sorry that i lied to you kor. Anyway, if you guys want to carry on with your plan, don't feel bad. Haha. I'm still young. Lol. I wished i was older. But oh well, goodbye...

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Confused shit much./

2009年12月27日, Sunday.
You won't know how it feels to be the only one that's alone. You won't know how jealous and envious can you get when others in your family are not alone and you're the only one. You want to know how it feels like? I guess you won't want to know. Wow, it's so great when my brother tells me how happy he felt ytd while i was like on the verge of killing myself, well that's silly but yeah. I mean, even though i'm happy for him, but i can't feel no more. I don't know or rather don't remember how is it like to be happy. how? I don't know. Who can make me happy? I want to leave this horrible planet. I know i won't leave so soon. But i want to. :/ I'm feel so alone and like oh-so-loser. -.- Anyway, i think i should just keep everything to myself now. I don't feel like talking much about anything. Be it a new crush? Not so soon. Be it any problems/saddening stuffs or whatsoever. I think i'm keeping them in my own bottle. Anyway, i hate cramps! :( I felt like fainting this morning. It hurts so bad. :( Now too. I wanna faint soon! :(

Labels: what is it like to enjoy and be happy?

Saturday, December 26, 2009

I don't know why i still care. I thought i already said that i'm giving up already. But why? I'm confused. :/ Okay, i guess i need time. He's sick now anyway. Hope he gets better. Ahh well. Yes i know, i still care. I know. But why? Sigh..

哭过就好了.

Friday, December 25, 2009

CRUSHED and ALONE.

2009年12月25日, Friday.
No one knows how i'm feeling now. Not you too. I guess you won't want to know how i'm feeling right? You're so indifferent. Why can't you be more friendly and stuff? I'm really heartbroken. This time i really mean it. I'm seriously very upset heartbroken, feeling weak useless lost. I don't know why. This time, it's the first time i'm feeling this way. Gosh, i think i'm mad. Anyway, you wont be even looking at this. Because, you're not bothered. I'm really want to know how you're feeling. Not a single thing? Not at all? Gosh, it's really heartbreaking. Really, no one knows how i'm feeling. I really want to c.o.l. But, mad uh. I don't know what should i do. How? I'm really lost. I guess i'm all alone now. It hurts me more than anyone knows. Hahahah, this is so funny. I'm like tearing now. Wow. Hahahhah. Cool right? I don't want to burden anyone anymore. No way man. No matter how tough it is, i must handle right? :) Anyway, it's like almost 5 months that i liked you. Seriously. It's long but, i don't know. Hahah. I'm really lost. Really. What should i really do? Hold on? Let go? Which? I don't know how long i can hold on anymore. I've been looking forward for every single chance to meet you and to talk to you and stuff. & what you gave me was a cold shoulder. No replies from you at all. I thought you might be someone different. I thought i thought. That's all so one sided. Hahah. Wow. I think i've let go like part of it? I don't know. Now, i don't know what and how i'm feeling already. My heart is like numbed. I'm unsure of how to feel anymore. Who can heal this pain of mine? I think i should be more independent huh? I can bearly breathe... Anyway, you left me with only 3hours worth of memories. That's all i think i'll have from you. I think, i've made up my mind. I guess i'm giving you up.. I just know i can't control my tears no more. hahah LOL.

Labels : I can no longer feel anymore...