♥GEORGINA关洁慧. `THIS.IS.LOVE`

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Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Hi, it's been a long time ever since i blogged here. I've always been using LJ instead. Oh well, ever since three years ago, this very special someone has been helping me a lot, caring for me, always been there for me. Since start of this year, we got together. He's the one who had been there for me no matter what. I really thank God for him. I feel as though i'm the luckiest girl ever on earth, the blessed woman ever. ♥ Thank you Baby for being there throughout this whole 6, coming 7 months, & of course it'll keep counting on. I really appreciate every single thing you did for me. Really, i really do. Baby, i love you.

Anyway, updates of my life. Next week, school'll be starting alrd. Wow. After 8 whole months. :/

Oh well, hope everything'll be fine, good and awesome.

Label: God, please help me to get through the toughest time of my life, Amen. ♥

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MARIO TAY!

Sunday, December 05, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIO, MY DEAREST BRUDDER!
HEARTS!
Seriously, you are a great great and wonderful friend. Really love you aload!
You are always the one making things that ain't funny, funny.
I miss the times when we just sit around and laugh/do/talk about stupid things.
We'll keep changing subjects but in the end, going back to the same one and laugh at it again. Hahah i really miss all of those. Oh well, i really hope god will bless you throughout your life.
Because he gave me the greatest gift ever : A friend/brudder like you.
I've many many things to say but oh well. Shall keep it for next time.
I'm not sure if you'll read this, but well. This are all from the bottom of my heart!
Love you! xoxo.

Maybe someday, i'll get there again..

I don't know why, but everytime when i need someone they'll always be gone. :(
This hurts alot. Because everytime i feel like crying, i need a hug. I need someone to talk to. All of these feelings in me are almost killing me. :( Now it's like i'm the only free bird among the 8 of us somehow. All are doing their school work etc, busy with their school. I feel really really alone. As in like all of them have things in common now, school. I'm like roaming around my own world.
It's like everytime i want to meet up with them, they'll be busy & i'll end up doing stupid things and just keep going out ; which is boring. :(
I'm feeling horrible now. I need to cry. :( I need a hug.

I guess it's really time for me to let you go. It'd been so long that i've been waiting. I guess i'd been thinking too much. But i do know that i still love you. I think it's really time to let you go.
I can't bear to but i think i still have to. :(

In the end, it's still hard to say goodbye..

When will this last?

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Why am i feeling this way again? :(
This feeling is stuck to me forever somehow. I've got no idea how to deal with it.
I guess this is really love. I have to fake just to pretend nothing happened, at all. Sighs.
I need a hug, i need someone. I want to cry and need to cry. :(

When i need someone to talk to, there isn't a single soul.
Now all of us are on our own.
They are busy with their work and i don't want to disturb them too much too.
:(

Hmmm..

Okay, i'm not sure why am i feeling this way. But i'm really feeling horrible. :(
I want to cry, i want to scream. I'm stupid enough to think so much. False hope.
I'm super upset. :(

Misses.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

I still do miss you. Yes, i still do.

screwed, totally.

Monday, October 04, 2010

F.M.L. I'm tired of here. People are inconsiderate here. All t they could do is to think of themselves and assumptions. It sucks. I want to leave this shit place. A home doesn't look and sound like one. Fuck this shit. I'm tired of life. Really. And YES just so freaking dumb. how much i study it's like the shit results. fuck my life, totally.

miscellaneous

Saturday, September 25, 2010

I wish time could be fast forward. I'm really tired. Now. I just feel like breaking down. Was having loads of things on my mind on the bus ride. Many of them. :( This makes me feel worse. Help me. :l

Miscellaneous feelings.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

I ain't sure what the fcuk i'm doing. I'm seriously sure. It just so that so many things happened at the same time, not sure of which to look at. Some things just pissed me off, at the same time, i feel sad. I wasn't sure what was happening. All i knew that i wanted to cry. I needed to be alone. As i was standing right there alone, afraid that people might think that i'm mad. I really want to let everything out. Because the feeling was overwhelming me. I ain't sure what was i really feeling. It was really all mixed up, really mixed up. I don't want people to think that i'm like an attention seeker or whatever whenever it comes to this kinda events. I felt horrible. Real horrible. Like who could have felt this way when you were actually intended to enjoy yourself and was actually enjoying yourself? Really so many things happened at the same time. So i'm not sure which to feel. I didn't bother to tell anyone because i think you'll get sick and tired of me. Really. I guess i felt sad because i feel the same way as you do. Seeing you like that really hurts me alot. It just came automatic. I really want to be there by your side and listen to you. Or maybe you could just sit there and i just sit with you. I really want to be right there for you. I'm sorry that i lied to you now that it's gone. I know, i really know and i'm sure that it's still right there. It's still in me. It's somewhat like part of me. I don't know. I really don't know. I wish that this could really go away. :( I'm really feeling horrible now. :(

Also, i just hope that this could simply just stop. If there's something that
prolongs, anyone, i'm sure will get sick and tired of it.Seriously, internal
conflicts should just stop. Yes, i used to hate him. But now seriously, because
i know what to do and that's enough to live with myself. I think you won't want
to be treated the way you're treating people now. Because that way of treatment
seriously sucks y'know. Now it's because i've grown up. Really. Maybe you should
grow up too. It's because of all these nonsense, you spoilt my day.